Monday, March 29, 2010

That was fast. Way too fast.

Well spring break is over and I am very disappointed. I would give anything to have a 2 week christmas break and then get an extra week for spring break! That would be better. I think people need a little extra time before hitting the books, I do. 

This last week might have been the best week of my life! First, last Monday, a week ago today, I celebrated (with my wife) our two year anniversary. Statistics say we have conquered the two hardest years of our marriage. YAY!!! I love you, babe. 

Friday before spring break we left corvallis and set off to medford. on saturday we headed to the coast with my parents truck and camper. We spent the whole week in Southern Oregon/Del Norte, and thanks to the generosity of many people, we only spent two hundred dollars. AMAZING. We went surf perch fishing and the beach, fly fishing on the Pistol river, toured the redwoods, spent hours enjoying the endless beauty, spent the night on a jetty, had the best clam chowder on the coast, visited a marine mammal rehab center, played about a hundred games of Yatzee (and got beat a lot), read the 5th Harry Potter, and spent the whole week amazed of how blessed I am with my wife! 

I hope that I will have some pics up this week. 

Have a great day!!!

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

God Only Knows.

Isn't it funny. I have always said that there is only one who knows the future and that we should leave it to him. The ironic problem is I never follow my own advice. I always flip out, stress out, get anxious, and then some things still never go my way. Once I have that realization that I really can't control what happens next in life, life always gets better. The difference? - one is like trying to guide a bull down the street by the horns and the other is like riding your favorite roller-coaster. you know, the one that becomes your favorite as you go down the first drop. 

I definitely had one of those experiences this last weekend. If you have been following, I have suffered from a lot of anxiety this last term trying really hard to get the grades I need to get into a grad program here at OSU. Well guess what there is a 99% chance that I didn't get in. So when I got this news you know what I did. flipped out, cried, punched a wall, called in a bomb threat, nope. I smiled. What else was I supposed to do? There is only one who truly controls the future, and it ain't me. - side note: computer is telling me "ain't" ain't a word, idiot. - 

I just want you to know that I am very happy with how the future looks and still don't have security in my plans yet, but, this time, I'll leave it to Him. 

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Worship and a really good mom.

First and foremost, I love my wife. I just got to bring her an arizona tea at her work and when I got there, she was slaving away, mopping the floor all by herself. She works very hard to keep us afloat financially.

So I haven't been going to church very much lately. This is the first time in my life that I have struggled with attending. There are a few different reasons, but mainly its because I don't want to. What I am about to share is a little personal and I hope it doesn't get taken wrong so on...

My wife and I have felt very isolated at the place we have been attending. This is OUR fault, and we take full responsibilty for getting us into this position. But I don't take the responsibility for the length of time we have been feeling this way... (that's all I am saying)

I foresee many changes coming in our life when it comes to church things. But most of all I have learned some things that I want to pass on to you.

One. Take care of your ministers. Whether they our your youth ministers, pastors, or people who are trying to take care of you, know that they have needs too. Too often people who try to fulfill other's needs don't have anyone to fulfill their own.

Two. (This goes hand-in-hand with the first). Those who serve need to be served. Every one has needs. For some reason we always think that the people in charge or up front or serve are perfect just the way they are. BUT WE WERE WRONG. Servants are great people, leaders, and sometimes they need great people to take care of them.

Three. Take care of your family. If your family is unhappy, SOMETHING IS WRONG. Fix it. Love them enough to help them.

Four. My mother loves me. Yes, I already new this. But she reminded me of it last night. I love you too mom!

Christ, I need you to lead my family back to you. Bring us to a family that will surround us and take care of us. We need people to get us back on our own two feet. In Jesus' name, Amen.

I reserve the right not to talk to you about this. But you have permission to inquire.

Monday, March 1, 2010

A great Love poem.

O Mistress mine, where are you roaming?
O, stay and hear; your true love's coming,
That can sing both high and low:
Trip no further, pretty sweeting;
Journeys end in lovers meeting,
Every wise man's son doth know.

What is love? 'Tis not hereafter;
Present mirth hath present laughter;
What's to come is still unsure:
In delay there lies not plenty;
Then, come kiss me, sweet and twenty,
Youth's a stuff will not endure.

This poem has inspired many song writers, and for the longest time I couldn't understand why. Not until Matthew Harris enlightened my world with his setting of this poem.

To me this peom sounds like a guy just trying to get in bed with a girl and using whatever words he can to do so. but with a little focus on the right lines, there is an overlying since of true love. I recommend finding a recording of this poem set to music by Matthew Harris. I wish I had the words to describe what I mean.

It really is all about what you see. I saw man-whore and seduction, but Harris saw pure beauty. He saw a couple chasing true love.

Just another testament to "Things may not always be as they seem."